Respect. This word has been hounding my thoughts for a couple of days now. Probably it is due to what happened on Tuesday and Wednesday. Made me realize a few things in particular.
I have lost respect for a particular individual. Practically all of it. This individual's role is to teach and nurture. I shall not go into details about the identity. Let's just call this person: X.
A classmate and I were dissatisfied with X and the way of teaching in particular. As responsible university students who are fully concern over our education, we decided to have a talk about how the class is conducted and why we were not satisfied. In all honesty, I feel that the class is conducted in a manner that insults most, if not all, of the students' intellect. I am not enrolled in an elementary school and I sure as hell am not one (I can't say the same for some), so will you fucking stop treating me like one? I've had enough of trying to convince you that what you are doing will only lead to a road of no return for some of my course mates. If your class was not compulsory, I would have never taken your class in my whole life. However what truly made me lose my respect for you is the fact that you refused to give me proper responses during our discussion. Avoiding the questions, beating about the bush... C'mon, you've got to do better than that. The fact that you had the nerve to say that you have to "look out" for the weaker students at the expense of me and my other classmate was totally flabbergasting and disgusting, to put it crudely. If you think that your current way of teaching is adequate, well let me tell you now: You are fucking wrong. Look at the way the class is conducted. Does it feel like a university class with intellectual ideas being shared? Hell no. When other students raised up wrong facts and information, I do not see you correcting them or make any form of clarifications. Enough is enough. I am going to do something about it soon enough if you do not make any improvements.
Another incident that made me ponder a lot about respect is the brawl that happened on Wednesday. In a way, I felt that the person should learn to have respect when dealing with someone who has been helping him/her so much. Confronting someone with an attitude will only make things worse. Watch your body language and how you talk kid. I was already holding back as much as I could. If there were no third parties around, did you seriously think you could have walked out of that confrontation with me unharmed? You've pissed off the wrong guy and you should seriously think who you are dealing with. I forgive but I never forget. I truly regret having rendered all that help to you before this. Disappointment is too weak a word to describe how I feel about you. You've failed to impress me in terms of maturity and the way you carry yourself.
Bottom line is, you want the respect, you've got to earn it. I do not give it cheaply. And once you lose my respect, it is extremely difficult for you to earn it back. Same applies to my trust.
